No baby yet, but soon we hope!

This will probably be a post where I ramble, so many thoughts are in my head. I'm sitting here having contractions. If you've never experienced them, they are lot's of fun, let me tell you. But, they are sporadic and that is not conducive to active labor :( I know it can't go on forever, but when you are 9 months pregnant, huge and uncomfortable, it feels like forever!! I suppose I should enjoy this time right now though, as they will only get worse in order to get her out. Yikes. And then I'll have a baby to care for. I have a dr appt tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. I'm ready to meet my little girl! And I'm sure Brad is ready to get rid of his cranky hormonal wife. Sorry honey!

My sister took me to get a manicure and pedicure on Sat. for an early birthday present. It was nice and now my nails look all pretty for the dr's and nurses in delivery. The baby needs to come soon though, because I seem to be good at chipping them.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. This was #5 without my Mom....and it gets easier, but it sucks still. It's just a day to remember what I don't have. Especially when you are about to give birth to your first child, and wish the person who gave birth to you was here. All the hormones don't help I guess. I hope it will be different when I have this baby to celebrate with every year.

Other than that, I'm ready (well, as ready as I can be!) for a baby. I'm technically already on maternity leave as far as my clients at work know (my co-worker is handling it all), although I'm working up until I'm in labor. Brad and Ray cleaned and organized the house really well this weekend. The baby stuff is all done and car seat all set. I'm terrified of labor though. The closer it gets and the more contractions I have, how am I going to make it? I know women have been doing this forever, but me and pain? We're not friends. And then there's the small detail that once she's here....what do I do? I know Brad will be great, he assures me he's an expert since he has a kid already :) I just don't want to suck as a Mom.

So, we are ready Baby Girl, anytime you'd like to meet us would be great (the sooner the better!)

One year down...

Brad and I celebrated our 1st anniversary on Friday, 3/13/09. I can't believe we've been married a year already! It's been quite the year too, mostly good though :)

Brad was very sweet to me. I have to say that while he does do nice things for me, usually they are of the non-romantic variety so this was a nice surprise. He picked me up from work with a dozen roses and a card. In the card he explained he had tried to find my hair stylist to get a (desperately needed) haircut appt. set up for me. After walking into 5 salons, he found the one she worked at, but she wasn't in so he left a msg for her. I thought it was incredibly sweet that he went to all that trouble! Anyway, our anniversary dinner was a surprise to me....the Melting Pot. Yum, I love this place. We had a nice relaxing 2.5 hr dinner and enjoyed ourselves. I love my husband! For his gift I got him tickets to the Twins season opener. He foiled my surprise a couple days early though-- they came in the mail and his big kid curiousity got the better of him..he wanted to know what I got from the Twins. He thought I might have won something :) Oh well, I tried!

On to today, St. Patrick's Day. It was always a celebration in our household with my Irish mother. My Dad was not a lick of Irish though and today is the 2nd anniversary of his death. We decided my Mom must've picked this day to have Dad join her--maybe she was having a party or something? I miss them both so much and it makes me sad to know that they will never hold my baby and she'll never get to meet them. But I know they are up there celebrating and will celebrate their youngest daughter's baby-- their 14th grandchild!-- with us in 2 short months (yikes!) when this little one arrives!

Valentine's Day....

We celebrated Valentine's day last night. Brad scored lot's of points! He made me close my eyes when he led me in...he had set up our living room with candles and lit a fire. He started with a salad,then cooked us steak, shrimp and potatoes. For dessert he had made cookies, then added ice cream and drizzled chocolate on top. It was all so yummy, and so sweet! Especially since romance is not usually his thing (that's why I had to post about it, so I can remember it)I'm definitely a lucky girl, awwwww.

Then today, I had to go for my 27 wk dr. appt. Good times. I had to drink the orange stuff (flat orange pop--I hear this is the improved version-yuck!) for the gluocse test, get a rhogam shot because I'm RH negative, and be checked for cervical cancer. I have to wait for the blood results for gestational diabetes--hoping I pass and don't have to go back and do the 3 hr test! But, no cancer cells found so that's good. I did gain a bunch of weight and am measuring ahead though...this baby is going to be huge! No wonder I can no longer breathe easily or sleep at all! All worth it though in the end. Her room is coming along, just need a few more things and then baby! Can't believe I'm in the 3rd tri, yikes!

Time is flying by

Life has been a bit hectic lately. I'm now 6 months pregnant and getting huge! Not sure this whole pregnancy thing is my cup of tea. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to be able to be carrying my child, especially after experiencing a loss. But I have no idea how my mother did this 8 times, and I wish she were here so I could ask her! A good night's sleep is something I vaguely remember...I guess it's God's way of prepping me for the sleepless nights with a baby. So I should expect to go back to sleeping well in what, like 18 years, right? Ha. Brad has been busy in the baby's room. We had decided to keep the walls the same (tan/khaki, or as Behr refers to it brown teepee). He knows how much I love polka dots and wanted to make the room more girly, so he drew different size circles on 2 of the walls and painted them chocolate brown, pink and white. It turned out so cute, I love it! Some day I will figure out how to post pics. He's also busy working on a closet organizer system. He has more time now since he's unemployed and looking for a job. He has been doing some side jobs so that's helping with the bills, but I'm still nervous and trying not to worry. Anyway, everything else is just same ole, same ole. Except I'm watching my feet slowly disappear as I look down. Oompa loompas are cute, right???

Halfway there!

I'm 20 wks pregnant today, woo hoo!! I can't believe in 20 wks or so there will be a little person in our house that we are completely responsible for. I've wanted to be a mommy my whole life...but now that it's getting close, it's starting to be scary!! AND, we found out last week it's a girl! She is healthy...and stubborn like her father, HA. Ok, maybe she got a little bit of that stubborness from me too :) We got some cute stuff for Christmas..now she just needs to have the room cleaned out so there is a place for it all. We are talking about names...but that we will be kept a secret until she's here. I don't want anyone else's opinion!! Chilli is still doing well too...although he's in for a shock when the little one arrives I'm sure. Hopefully he does well with her and doesn't try to turn all her things into his toys--he has plenty!

Baby update....

We got to hear the heartbeat of our baby yesterday for the first time. It was amazing! I had a pit in my stomach the whole day waiting for our appt. So, we are at 14 wks and counting!! I can't believe I've made it this far. There is always the fear that something will happen, but it's starting to feel real that we are really going to have this baby and I'm going to be a mommy! And, knock on wood, the nausea and puking I've had for the last 8 wks seems to be slowing down. I actually feel halfway normal! It feels good.

We also scheduled our big ultrasound for Dec. 23rd!!! We will know for Christmas if it's a boy or girl. I'm thinking girl, and that's what most of the old wives tales say as well. We'll see!

It's been awhile....

So, after what seemed like forever (6 months of trying), it appears I'm pregnant again!!!! YAY! We went in for the 2nd time today, and the little peanut is still growing and still has a heartbeat. I can't tell you how much of a relief it is. We are 10 weeks along. We found out at 3 wks, 5days since I'm a bit impatient. I can't believe it's been 6 wks already! Morning sickness started at 6 wks and is still going. Either puking or feeling like I have to--good times let me tell you!! Brad is waiting to get his wife back...I've been holding down the bed for quite some time now :)

We haven't told our families yet. It's scary letting it out there after a loss, like if we tell, the other shoe will drop. I know that is silly, but it is so scary. I want to be happy and excited, and some days I am. Other days the fear just creeps in... I feel a wierd twinge and suddenly I think something is wrong. I think it is getting better since we've seen the baby a couple times now, but anything can happen. I should probably quit reading, I get too many ideas of what could happen. I'm due on 5/19/09....just 5 days after my birthday. It will be fun to see when the baby actually arrives. We will hopefully get to find out right before Christmas if it is a boy or girl. I can't wait for that day!

In other news, our puppy is getting huge! He weighs 30 lbs now, and is getting taller. He's still a good boy, although the poor thing has been a bit neglected as far as walks go- I've been glued to my bed or near a toilet for awhile. I'm hoping I get some energy soon....especially since it is getting colder and I know he won't like winter walks. He hates to go out when it rains!